Thursday, 14 October 2010

the blessing of friendship

I have never been so content and at peace with my brothers and sisters in Christ. I can feel the love of God and His care as well through them. Thank you so so much. I love to spend every moment with them.

Sunday, 10 October 2010


yihee! somebody took notice of me? hahaha! am i teasing myself? I know, i sound silly. wala lang. na touch naman ako God. hahaha

Sunday, 12 September 2010


im completely blank
out of focus
out of passion i guess
im not inspired
and with that im not okay
whats wrong with me!!

Monday, 12 July 2010

Blood Weakens Me

Im here in the office (1st time to blog sa office. lol)
I feel so weak. I dont want to stand up.
tons of blood comes out from my body..
arrgghhh... pain. When will I go to heaven and experence pain no more

Saturday, 10 July 2010

Saturdate Red Ribbon & KFC

Just had my dgroup with Oasis, Nethz and Ate bu at Red Ribbon earlier this morning.

As always, my cry baby "gift" was on again. hahaha! Everytime we get to talk about God's work or lessons He leaves in us... everytime we share our experiences, I never fail to use ate bu's supplies of tissues. It's like im so sensitive or it's so dear to my heart that my eyes never fails to produce droplets of water (droplets?).

Naisip ko nalang.. pano pag ako na maghandle? iiyak din ako? hahaha.. oh well.. maybe tamang drops.. lol. but its a relief sharing your life and struggles to your sisters :D

Wednesday, 21 April 2010

Concert for Cause, Concert for God's Glory!

Date: April 20, 2010
Place: Araneta
What: Touching Heavens with Darlene Zshech and the Hillsong Worship Team

The day where prayers where answered by our dear father, Lord God in heaven. Right now, di pa rin sya nagsisink in. It's beyond awe. beyond wonders...

I was given an opportunity to serve God by being part of the production team. Imagine?? ME??? that alone is mouth dropping!

-Background: Last november 2009 I was almost begging God to make it possible for me to go to australia to participate the Hillsong Concert. But God said no. I was making reasons like, if i go ill have this boldness and in depth knowledge and therefore ill be changed and ill be a good preacher (maybe God was saying "Yeah right!". haha!). But still the answer is No. He told me that i dont need to go to australia just to become good in talking about Him (God). My response to that was... "okay, fine. sige hindi na :( " (hehehe..) So I dropped the idea. ANd move on with my life.

So back to present. Yehhhhhs! See?? God said no, but then He gave me a much much much much better one. I just cant find the words to describe.

Unforgettable moments:
  • When the band started playing Might To Save, i looked at Oasis since I know it is her fave. She was like "Shao!!! Mighty to save!" Then I hugged her. And we hug each other while we are singing and crying! haha! First part and i am singing at the top of my lungs, jumping, praying, crying... and crying.. aahhh what an awesome worship it is!!! (ooops, di na ako nagwork? haha! mm.. wala naman na pong gagawin that time eh. hehehe pish! bumalik naman po ako sa post ko. hehehee)
  • All the songs! I love all the songs! Ive been singing all those for years and hearing them live was amazing!! Darlene was so nice. She keeps on saying in different ways that the night is for praise and worship and it is not about the band. It just says that her heart is in the right place.
  • The audience.. almost all was praising the Lord. It was an amazing view. Amazing!!! How great is our God?
  • When the whole prod team prayed around afternoon. We prayed with our hearts for the immigration didn't released the band's work permit for some reasons. And we could feel God's presence at that time. I think everyone cried or at least got teary eye. And God faithfully answered our prayers. The commissioner signed their docs 2 hrs before the concert (did I got the details right?)
  • Friends I got to know even for a short period of time. =) God has chosen us and called us to be part of this team for more reason that are yet to unfold. =) Thank you for being so nice. I've learned a lot from everyone.
It was such an honor to work with talented individuals. Thank you for giving me this opportunity. God-willing, I'll be able to worked with you guys again.

Indeed, the night was not all about the band. It was not about anyone, not even about myself. It was all about God's glory. And I felt blessed by it.

"Better is one day in your courts than a thousand days elsewhere" =)

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

Maybe I Just Need Rest and More QT

I miss someone. Not someone in particular (which is extra weird).
Sigh! I think I have to get off my face in front of the PC.

Thursday, 1 April 2010

From a Conversation

I realized all of these from a conversation with a brother.
  • the truth is i cannot fast track my growth. It takes time and experience. I cannot use the service that i am doing now to justify my claim that I am mature enough. Yes, i am growing and learning but not to the level that I want people to see me. I got rebuked upon realizing this. And so, i shouldn't hurry myself up and just enjoy the moments that i do have. My time will come.

Sunday, 14 March 2010

Amazingly Productive Day

I feel tired today. Not tired as in "I'm-so-stressed-I-need-to-breathe" type of tired. It's a good feeling type of tired.

God mightily used my time today (sagad kung sagad). Maybe I'll share the details the next time for I need strength for tomorrow's work. I'm just glad that my God is making use of my time productively.

To Him be the glory.

Saturday, 27 February 2010

What is Your Purpose?

Today I learned a lot and a wanna share to you what I do believe that God's answers to my questions.

Well, recently, these past few days (or maybe months na?), I have been asking for God's destination for me so I will know my direction. Human as we are, I want to know it instantly. I got impatient. When God gave me this new job, I have assumed in my heart that "this is it", His promise to me. But then I got confused because I was not feeling that this is really it. In a way, my ego got hurt because it's as if i got demoted since it is starting from the basics. Then I asked God, why? I don't understand. What then really is my purpose? Did I made the right choice? Or have I failed you again? Then, anxiety attacked me. I got worried, even on those littlest things, which is crazy! And when you are worried, that means YOU lack FAITH, right? I continually sought Him during my quiet times, and He shared to me the story of Joseph. Joseph undergo from being beloved to slave, from favored employee to prisoner. But then, in God's perfect timing, He made Joseph 2nd in Pharaoh throughout Egypt. And all the trials, hardships he undergo ALL made sense. Not only that he was able to save his family and all God's people from the extreme famine.

These are the questions/lines that got me:
  • How long are you willing to wait until you receive what God has promised?
  • He developed Joseph's character to a point where he could be entrusted with the fate of his country and the surrounding nations as well.
  • Allow Him to prepare you & teach you (so you'll have an impact on society & will make a difference in his kingdom. This may mean RESISTING shortcuts & spending some time in the trenches, but the result will be a walk with God that will sustain you through the toughest circumstances.
  • Be patient and allow him to develop your character.
  • Dont assumed that God has abandoned you.
And I think this was His message to me through different people whom I encountered today:
  • You were born for His purpose (job12:10)
  • You didn't create yourself to know what you are created for.
  • Life is about allowing God to use you for His purpose (to make use more of yourself)
  • Life's purpose is not necessarily equivalent to SUCCESS
2 Ways in knowing your Purpose:
1.) U can speculate (which is mas mahirap ata?)
2.) Having a personal relationship with God (the creator) - 1Cor 2:7
-You discover through a relationship with Christ
3.) By Revelation - Ephesians 1:11
-it's really a matter of discovery
-God is thinking of you, long long time before you...

ANd just like what my friend told me, in knowing oneself, it is indeed a JOURNEY.

Friday, 19 February 2010


Im looking at all my tagged pictures at facebook. And i cant help but feel overwhelmed by it. Truly God gave me a lot of very good, treasured friends. I miss them. I miss hanging out with them. Laugh, talk, everything is so precious to my heart. With this, I feel so loved by my God. I know i let down some of those friends i value most. But I know God will make a way for me to prove to them how much they mean to me.

Thursday, 28 January 2010

1 more day

i miss blogging. hehe.. its really good when u have a space where not all will be able to find this. harharhar!

*sana pala i went home kagad. it was a blessing na im not OT. pero napatagal usapan namin sa may icebergs.. and now im making habol sa oras to have ENOUGH rest. well there's one more day to go before its weekend..

and dang! we have our kick off pa pala.. =(
so much for being nega! i dont wanna be like this!!!!!

Dapat di ako nagpapadala sa mga nega people.

*gosh i have sipon. cant breathe!!

Saturday, 23 January 2010

I feel Indifferent

bigla akong kinabahan.
i dunno...........................
shux. i think i need to shut this comp.

Saturday, 9 January 2010

Happy Birthday!!

hey its your birthday! I know you wont be able to read this... so there happy happy happy birthday. I know you are happy with your life right now.. you may be struggling in some areas of your life right now, but God is with you and I know that you already know that.

You're in my prayers...
And I always hope for what makes you happy.
Stay happy and continue serving our Lord.

Happy Birthday!

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