Im still in the middle of understanding why its seems to be just a bliss then there's hurt and pain...
And I just realized:
that angst does not come from God
that He is at work in both of our lives
that He hears me and my cries
that I am in pain because he is... and I'm sharing it with him.
And so the song goes
"We need to come to Him and see Him as He is. And that's true worship. Because in the midst of that, all securities are made clear and all fears are relieved".
God is Love.
God Loves me.
He taught me how to Love
And I am happy because I am loving in its truest form.